Analysing my own fav lines (inspired from Genius)

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See, In short,

I binged watch Genius interviews today

so I'm going to have one for myself since no one's going

to knock at my house

“hey in all your poems, you've used a lot of terms regarding “scars” what does that say about journey been from last few years?”

But I'm still going to answer it.

Because,

Why not!?

Let's begin

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I tried my best to think of a certain topic to write about,

I haven’t had been this much into movies as I am these days and trust me there are films out there

that are real gems but they aren’t talked about enough,

but that’s valid again because gems are discovered, they’re hidden, they’re never already ‘ready to sell’ in the market.

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That was enough usage of words for the introduction part.

I have never truly revealed my actual music interests besides taylor swift or the weeknd or styles maybe but let me tell you, Tamino is one of them.

I have been writing since 2015.

(That seemed an extravagant statement, I was just around 9) but I just said writing.

2021 : from a writing pov

2021 was the milestone I would say, from May 2021 those six months of 2021 I had spent thinking and writing, I did not study (I still managed to get 93 percent so I was not stopped from writing)

Folklore was the biggest vibe for me,

And evermore. I felt I was living in the 80s, such a classic surrounding I would maintain around me.

All my day would evolve around Folklore, Classic Authors like Edgar Poe, Virginia Woolf, Plath, My favourite writer Oscar Wilde, dark Academia, Countryside videos, Literature, horror stories, books, sad stories

I had also made a playlist (his toque sweatshirt) . It's still on my spotify.

From 26th oct 2021 until 29th Oct 2021, those three days are the only days I can relive any day with everything given up in return.

Those three days, I started writing a story, with nothing in mind but those three days I was writing continually with the playlist all day and not a single source of disturbance.

Guess what, I am still writing it on my docs, it’s almost 10,000+ words now. Those characters feel like an important part of my life today.

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Well, So with that being said, I thought I might just share some of my favourite verses from each piece that I have written until to this date.

No one’s going to write about it, so I’ll put my own self on the pedestal no worries. You gotta appreciate and show off yourself before the world so here am I -

1. “I’ve asked Santa to fill your stockings with the stars,

That would make your wishes come true,

So he’ll mend your heart with blizzards of hopes as we’ll dance on your favourite Christmas tunes.”

About: This one’s called “Feliz Navidad” which is ‘Merry Christmas’ in Spanish

I wrote this in November 2021.

It’s a bittersweet plot, written from a male perspective, where a person reminisces memories of his lover on the occasion of Christmas.

This one I wrote after listening to Anson Seabra’s Christmas Album. Music just gives the right vibe you know

2. “He has copper brown colour and yellow skin tone,

A melancholic pain in the eyes you'll drown in.

But his skin is mostly covered with wounds,

Guess he doesn't like the moon,

maybe ’cause silence haunts him”

About: This is from “Lost boy - 1”

I had a very special post about this poem on my instagram when I wrote it in August 2021.

Most of my poems used to be about a boy who is lonely, or whether about a man who's not been treated gently by his own loved ones (written from a third person pov)

It was during that time, until today, that I advocate males, because of their battles with mental health.

I had this belief that any man is not able to open up to his closed ones, like he struggles to open up even to his girlfriend which made me hate the fact of being known as someone's girlfriend.

I used to that if I become someone's girlfriend tomorrow, he might face the same issue,he might not be able to open up to me

I do think of it sometimes..

Now, I don't know to what extent it is true.

I had this crazy obsession with solving “men '' mental health issues (sounds insane)

but yes so I would just write about it, rather than going to every male and asking them.

It was just only once that I had a male to discuss male mental health issues with me.

3. “The heart wrenching night,

the stars have forget to dream,

The wind danced between our breaths.

Now you're the ghost,

the wind is the guest when I say

“I'll get you the moon”

as an excuse for your death.”

About: This stanza belongs to “The Barren room”

Look, you have to get to used to my sad poems, and almost all of them are written from a male perspective.

i don't know what was wrong with me but I hoped that maybe one day a guy might relate to it, and that day ill maybe be eligible to address myself as a “writer”

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(Let's pray this ain't reaching them)

I have written dedicated poems too, for the principal of the school I passed out my Xth grade from (this was too formal lol)

and the head of the department and they still have my words preserved on their table, I do feel quite proud.

(I was forced to but yet I have only written words I actually meant)

But apart from them,

I have some personal ones too written for certain people but the

vocabulary goes too high standard there.

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4. “I'll wear all the things you don't like about yourself,

as a stain to remember,

as a costume for my bleeding scar,

I'm afraid,

I don't want your skin,

But I can mend your teared wounds with

yellow hearts”

About: This from 4 din “4 days”

(This definitely will sound like a high class analysis)

I was listening to this track “Yellow hearts” and it was a unique concept in the world of red hearts so I used that term there.

This poem I wrote in Feb 2022.

I'm the narrator here, the first person pov.

Here, this is a confession or say I have addressed my truest intentions here.

Analysis of the stanza:

• “I don't want your skin” is a very clear declaration of my feelings,

simply saying

it's a synonym of “I don't want to fuck you, I can just spend a lifetime without knowing your skin”

This might seem very aggregating but I meant it back then,

I mean it today.

And the introductory lines suggest that you (consider anyone you'd say it to, I wrote it to my favourite to a fav book character of mine)

• You and your traits of self loathing / self disliking are the ones that I would wear as a costume for my bleeding scars, bleeding scars is a metaphor for my insecurities.

(wear - don't take it technically)

• Mending your teared wounds - fixing you. emotionally. mentally. physically. technically.

(I'd definitely get a job at a plumbers company with such a good fixing skills)

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That was it for today,

I would Like to thank me for giving myself my precious time, gotta promote myself on other platforms too.

See ya, folks!

Contact: appleskeats@gmail.com

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